It's hard to put into words what I felt with this book. It was such an emotional journey for me and I was definitely not expecting to feel such in impact on myself.
I've learnt a lot in here and I appreciated so much, to be able to read a story that spoke so intensely and so vividly to my 15 years old version. I went through some some rough patches regarding my sexuality back in the day and I know how it feels when you don't know what's happening to your mind or when you see so many people around you acting "normally", while you have this unconscious urge to be the odd one out. I know what it is to feel helpless thinking that there's something strange with you, and almost reaching rock bottom to understand that there is nothing wrong with you, you are just different and that is beautiful.
I felt as if a knife was cutting right through me when Ben's parents chose to abandon them. It was raw and so intense and I applaud Mason Deaver for having the courage to write about it, to lean towards that specific subject... we know that families are not always easy, and seeing how so many families might act towards their kids when confronted with a reality like that, was simply awesome. Ben was one my favorite characters so far this year, I wished for so many times to be able to be there for them, to tell them that everything was going to be okay and to help them somehow. We had the most mesmerizing connection ever and I won't forget that.
I was completely sucked in about the non-binary thing, which I didn't really have that much knowledge about, shame on me, I know. I spent the time while reading this book, also searching and getting acquainted with the history behind it and it's fascinating. I just love how much importance our LGBTQ+ community is getting and hopefully in time we won't need to be a community anymore, but a nation with all the rights recognised.